Monday, April 24, 2017

Day One: History and Personalities

dream: i was at a fair as a 5-6 year old. I was with my older brother and stepdad. i then dreamed I went back in time as a grown up to the fair. My little self didn't recognize my big self. I was extra excited though. My stepdad did recognize me . He gave me six dollars to spend on food. I went to go buy a corn-dog but they didn't have any so I bought I Philly cheese-steak.

next in my dream I had to sell tortillas with a gang. There was a girl. Then there was motorcycle man. The motorcycle took coins US Dollars and Euros.

Next thing I was floating underwater with scuba gear. I think my stepdad and mom were together with me.

I wish I could describe the detail of these situations. It gets fuzzy.

Now for today's topic entry. History: sparta vs athens. Personalities: Pablo Picasso.


I'm pretty tired. This is the chronicle of a person with schizophrenia. It doesn't feel like I have it though I've been told I have it. Sad. I live to dream. It seems the dream realm is reality for me. I went to high school and our mascot was a spartan. Sparta was made popular by the film 300. I don't train the body as I should. I admit it. I'm about 20-30 lbs over weight. I'd rather be a lean runner or a wrestler type. Today I conversed with my mother.

I'm a blip on the radar of the world. Famous in my own book because I'm divinely endowed with the spark of light that lights the world. One light in a sea of other lights. We all are god like. My religion is love. I testify of Yeshua, Haile Sellasie, Bob Marley, Peter Tosh, Donald Trump. These are good men. InI love pablo picasso. I'd like to be rich enough to buy his artwork or better yet duplicate his pieces on my own.
love and peace I leave you in the new name. JAH.

Sunday, April 23, 2017

Day Seven: Religion and Pop

Today's short blog is about Noah and Mahjong. No relation not to my knowledge.

Noah is a tremendous figure of the Old Testament. Mahjong is a game played throughout the world.
Can't. Seem. to. focus. Trying. mental illness. effort. games. try not wasting time. stumbling block. ministering to others. joy. random. modern culture. ancient culture. lay my head down to rest. No place to lay head. sad.


the end.

Saturday, April 22, 2017

Day Six: Sports and Philosophy

Cy Young and Socrates

Cy Young is a famous pitcher. He played baseball.

Socrates is a famous philosopher. He was made unto me by Bill and Ted's excellent adventure.
SO-CRATES as opposed to SAW-CRA-Tease. You know this entry is going to be really short my sleep schedule is messed up. I stayed up all Friday night. I'm aimed to stay up all night today. For shame.
I dreamed I was a vampire demon. That's the easiest way to describe the reality I saw. I can't tell if that life is a future life or a past life.

I'm less than human. I saw the subhumans lives growing up. I was in the mosh pit. I still had braces. My mouth was cut up. Maybe I have alien DNA. I'm a person with schizophrenia. Bollocks.

the end.

Friday, April 21, 2017

Day five: music and ideas and trends

Melody and the Luddites
Most people know what the tune of the song is. That's the melody.

aerial shots two cylinder helicopter motion fast forward tubes water park weakness illness.

I'm pretty fucking scared of going to sleep lately. I have these dreams where I know I'm living this shit. I never knew who was controlling all of this. until now. ALIENS. advanced human beings. I'm naive.
I can't remember my dreams. I can't remember my past lifes. YET. I will. They will come back. I'm planning on finishing this program of double learning daily and then I will carry out a program of shamanism.

Maybe I'm taking this too seriously. I'm scared of these aliens in my dreams? Maybe I need to watch that show on tbs about aliens.

I don't want to be a luddite. A luddite was one who opposed the industrial revolution. that's all for today. I'm aimed to make it to the top.

ps i missed my appointment because I didn't know where to go. My medication is wearking off.

Thursday, April 20, 2017

Day Four: Science and Film

Eratosthenes and Birth of a Nation (1915)

I watched the JRE where Eddy Bravo Brenden S. and Joe Rogan argued over flat earth and round earth. If they would have known Eratosthenes they could have resolved their problems. Eratosthenes calculated the circumference of the earth using an ancient method. We've known the earth is round for milenia. This flat earth business is just rubbish.

Birth of a Nation is a film I haven't seen. I probably won't see it. It is old. It's over 100 years old. Jesus I can't believe it's 2010s.

I'm really worried about getting to some schizophrenia appointments on time and on point. Anything can happen. Tomorrow day five I have to get my shot. I don't like getting my shot. But I stay humble and be a part and a cog in this gigantic political machination. So help me God.

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Day Three: Music and Visual Arts

Scott Joplin and the Bust of Nefertiti

I didn't die in my sleep last night. I did have a dream. I dreamed something so scary I woke up. I lay there surprised and scared. I wish I could describe what actually happened what I actually lived.

Today I blog about Scott Joplin again. The first thing I think of when I hear the name Scott Joplin is ragtime. That is with good reason because he wrote ragtime music which was popular at the beginning of the 20th century.

so tired. not sleepy tired. I'm tired of the mental illness. It sucks the life out of me. I'm trying to read about the bust of Nefertiti and write an article about what I learned.

"WHEN IN DOUBT, LET YOUR INSTINCTS GUIDE YOU" - panda fortune cookie

I got a visit from my "counselor" today. It seems like this guy is trying to make me feel bad for nothing. My view of reality is distorted.I'll try to give him the benefit of the doubt.

The bust of Nefertiti is a head statue about 20 inches tall. It was discovered in 1912 by German archaeologist Ludwig Borchardt. I have know clue why they call a bust "a bust". Comment on why that is.

And with that I'm a sign out. peace and blessings be upon InI.




Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Day Two: Double Literature

Ernest Hemingway and Anna Karenina

Ernest Hemingway is one of the greatest authors of the 20th century. He wrote one of my favorite books The Old Man and the Sea. I'm sure he's known for other books however that's how I know him. Mr. Hemingway was fond of Cuba and even lived there for a time. Like many of the greats Mr. Hemingway took his own life. He used a shotgun. Some may think wow what a morbid way to go. I am for people deciding their own fate and if that means they choose suicide then so be it. I don't have a gun but if I did I'd use it to end my own life. I'm in a prison, the prison of life. I'm learning to cope and handle living. The thing is I've lived so many times and had so many negative experiences it's getting old. I'm a person with schizophrenia. That means I see into other parallel realities and worlds. I used to hear voices the voices of the little people. I can't wait for the second season of sens8 to come out. I love every aspect of that show.

Next in today's double dose of literature is the work of Anna Karenina. i had never heard of it. It was written by Leo Tolstoy in 1877. Apparently it is "still surprising readings with it's immediacy and freshness." Anna Karenina. I am hoping I remember the title. Anna KA-RE-nina. If you have read it please leave in the comments why you like it. According to one amazon reviewer it is really good. Who knows maybe I'll have the chance to read this book at some point in my billions years of existence.

much love from Hillsboro. I may die tonight in my sleep. All my dreams are full of danger. Today they are filled with fire and dinosaurs. Watch out you might get hurt or get catapulted into the pit! Love jmo

Monday, April 17, 2017

Day One: History and Personalities

Today I'm struggling with some symptoms of schizophrenia. I've been hearing some voices saying
"You're worthless" and "You're bad" and "You're stupid". I don't know if it is because my medication is wearing out or what. I'm good. I'm a good guy. I'm not an angel yet I'm not a demon either. I'm a human. I struggle with self esteem but who doesn't. Anybody who says they don't are either liars or superheroes.

Today's post is on the code of Hammurabi and Albert Einstein.

I studied the code of Hammurabi at university however it was refreshing to revisit the topic. It was the world's first written law codes in recorded history. Hammurabi was a king. It was written in cuneiform.

Albert Einstein was a genius of the 20th century. His work on relativity revolutionized the world of physics. In fact he was named the person of the century by time magazine in the year 2000.

I'm really struggling, fam. I'm trying. It sucks to know my best isn't enough. I feel pressure. Which is a good thing. If I didn't feel some kind of pressure I know I wouldn't be alive. This is all I have for today. It's 3:30pm. I try to have these done by 5:00 pm in the afternoon. Stay well. Be excellent to each other dudes. (I'm a dude he's a dude shes a dude)

Peace.

Sunday, April 16, 2017

Day seven: Religion and Pop

So happy easter everyone. I don't believe in the resurrection of Jesus as a physical reality however I believe in the resurrection as a spiritual reality. Maybe next year my beliefs will change about this. I have no evidence to support this claim of life after death. As a matter of fact I don't believe in the resurrection even though the new testament and book of mormon support it. I choose not to believe in this third act. As far as I know I have this live to live and I plan to live it to the fullest. With that said today's topics are religion and pop.

The religion aspect of today's post covers what is the torah which is the old testament which is the five books of moses. Wow these books are very rich in tradition. These were given to Moses on top of Mt. Sinai.  I believe this is where jah first makes himself manifest to the world. The creation story is given in this sacred text. I ask myself "How can I benefit by living the torah?" It's a question I still am looking to answer.

The pop section of today's post covers coney Island. I'm not sure what coney island is. I'm pretty sure it's in new jersey/ I want to say they had a bunch of freak shows there. Was this the location of the hot dog? Let me consult the book. Correction it's at the southern edge of Brooklyn in New York. It was an amusement park. Ok. So the park was popular in the 1890s till about the great depression in the 1930s. It had a sketchy reputation; still millions attended the park. I was right about the hot dog. They still have the annual hot dog eating contest there.

So that is today's post. short sweet. to the point. check out some of my old posts if you like random nonsense coming from a person with schizophrenia. Thanks for checking this out. Leave a comment. Peace.

Saturday, April 15, 2017

Day Six:Sports and Philosphy

Naismith and appearance and reality

Sports: Naismith invented basketball. Only Basketball has a clear inventor.   I'm grateful for Naismith because I enjoy watching the NBA. I'm rooting for the Portland Trailblazers. GO BLAZERS!

Philosophy: Appearance can be different than reality. As a person with schizophrenia I often lose track of reality. Though it may appear to be a certain way it actually is another. I'm getting medicated for this disease every three months. I don't enjoy getting shot. Whenever I start to have a trip or a panic attack I remind myself I'm medicated.


Friday, April 14, 2017

Day Five: Music and Ideas and Trends

The basics of music. Music is sound. Organized sound. Melodic and harmonic sound. Music is pleasing to the ears.

Ideas and trends: communism. I'm slightly communist. I'll admit it. Thank God I don't live in the red terror- McCarthy era. I'll tell you why I'm communist. I believe in the commune. I believe in the ideals of state ownership. With that said I believe that communism and capitalism can work together to create a new form of government.

Much more could be said of these glorious topics however I'm tired of writing. I've written a lot. Check out some of my old posts. I've still been dreaming. I'm not so lonely in my dreams. peace be upon you. end of message. 3:51PM on 4/14/2017.

Thursday, April 13, 2017

Day Four: Science and Film

Cloning and the Lumiere Bros.

Dolly the sheep was the first cloning experiment that I know of. I remember the story when I was young. I don't have any ethical problems with cloning. I think people should be cloned. It seems to me there's a group of people that think that cloning is playing God. Perhaps this is correct should that stop us however from achieving great scientific feats? I argue not.

I had never heard of the Lumiere Bros. They are some of the worlds first filmmakers. They patented a special kind of camera to make movies with.

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

Day Three: Music and the Visual Arts

Day three: Music and the visual arts

music: Tchaikovsky

Tchaikovsky wrote the 1812 overture a fantastic piece of music celebrating Russia stopping Napoleon. You'd recognize it if you heard it. It has cannons scored into the piece. He also wrote several operas.

visual arts: Lascaux Cave paintings. The French caves have some paleolithic drawings and they leave you speechless.

last night I dreamed I was playing soccer. Doesn't surprise me. I've dreamed that before. Overall it was a good night's rest. I woke at 5:30 am excited to finish JRE #666 which I started the night before.

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

Day Two: double literature

Two books I'll probably read as an advanced human being: Ulysses and Crime and Punishment. Ulysses is an epic. It's the happenings of a man in one day. Crime and Punishment is the modern 20th century novel published in the 19th century (1866). It's about a guy who commits murder. We get his inner most thoughts. I say I'll read these as an advanced human being. I probably will never read them in this imperfect mortal state.

I don't have much to say today. I'm kind of sad for no reason. I'm kind of mad for no reason. I am person with schizophrenia. Its not fun. At the same time living life on my own terms is liberating. I'm guessing in a year I'll look back on today and want to know more about Ulysses and Crime and Punishment. For now reading about them in my books is enough. I can't stop thinking about the dream I had last night. I can't even begin to describe it. "My name is Arthur more" "I don't belong to any church." I saw a man who had rose tattoos on his neck and then I realized he was dead. At that moment I said "dead"? And with that I woke up. I lay there trembling on what had just happened. I remembered the part where I was in a stadium and a girl voice said "we'll be here a while. best keep watching." I was superstitious about what to say. I said "dead" with disbelief. I said "alive" with hope. Then I went to use the bathroom.

Physics for a date

Put put golf requires physics and luck. The angle you shoot the ball with is mirrored as it bounces off the wall.

Monday, April 10, 2017

Day 1: starting a new program

Mum axed InI what do you want to do? My response was help people build businesses. I change my answer now. I want to blog for a living. As a person with schizophrenia I'm the percentage of the population that does not work. My work is keeping myself busy with books. Some say this is no life. InI argue that it is a reality that makes me happy. Today April 10 I start an intense program that includes learning from several books. Everyday I will blog about topics from the books "The Intellectual devotional" and the flying circus of physics. This program will last for at least a year. It will then be renewed. It will be a valiant effort to keep the mind active and engaged.I'm interested in the timeless wisdom and my posts are designed to play into that wisdom. I don't plan on writing the best posts. I do  however plan on writing consistently.

The Alphabet

I was taught the alphabet as a child. I sung the alphabet to the tune of twinkle twinkle little star. I love the 26 letters. With the 26 letters I construct words. I am a wordsmith. English isn't the only language with an alphabet. The Hebrew language also has an alphabet. Their alphabet is a bit more esoteric than ours. Each letter has a mystical background and meaning. It's amazing.

Sigmund Freud

I don't know much about Freud. I know he was a famous psychologist or pyschiatrist. I know of Fruedian slips of the tongue where you say something too honest and hurt someone's feelings. A freudian slip is the real truth. Freud experimented with cocaine. Now I don't feel so bad having tried cocaine once. Freud came from a family of Austrian Jews. His sisters were in Nazi concentration camps.

Physics for a first date: the hanging spoon

When on a date consider asking the question how long can a spoon hang on my nose. Ask why breathing on the spoon acts as glue and helps the spoon stay. The answer is because friction. The breathe acts as glue because of the static electricity built up.

Tuesday, April 4, 2017

Considering my situation as a person with schizophrenia

In a recent meditation I came to know my purpose to "help future generations understand people with schizophrenia". I complete my purpose by blogging. Blogging is my religion. My life goal is to live with dignity and be a friend to those I've met through the years.

As a person with schizophrenia I hear voices. I also hear the voice of God. God in my paradigm is that little voice inside your head that whispers yes or no. I don't think of God as an anthropomorphic being. I view God as an extension of the consciousness granted unto me as an advanced human being. All I have is the now. As far as I see there is no past. There is no future. There is only now. The real truth might be different as far as past, presents, and futures go however I know this moment exists and that is all I'm working with.

InI am a pronoun. InI not a he. InI not a she. InI be InI. Hard for some to understand. The closest translation would be He'n'She cept it's InI. Bob Marley said he's woman in the morning time. That mean he have a soul of a woman alongside the soul of man. The most sublime truth for any individual is InI. I-man soul and i-woman soul. There is a lot of gender confusion in the world in 2017. Well I perceive there to be much confusion. I might be mistaken. If we had these truths go out that each person has two souls for every one heart we'd see greater happiness Each has an emperor and empress inside InI. See the pronouns himself and herself are outdated. InI is simpler and it conveys much greater truth. The only time InI use the pronoun HIM is when I refer to divinity. H.I.M. which stands for His Imperial Majesty.

I haven't read the Urantia Book in full. I'm working on it. However someone said in a forum to believe that Haile Sellasie is Jesus Reincarnated is wishful thinking. I'm guilty of this crime. To me the time frame is this. I know not when Jesus will return and set up a righteous government. In fact my conscience tells me that will not happen. My conscience tells me that Jesus came back to earth as HIM he came black. through the line of king Solomon and king David. Africa has yet to rise. I hope and pray for a united africa. How much longer Jah shall we suffer a sickly body? When shall be the day of African repatriation?

So again I contemplate how I'm a person with schizophrenia. Does schizophrenia have me because I believe man is god? Or does schizophrenia have me because I hear voices?

The closer I am to God (InI) the closer I am to the veil of forgetfulness. The closer I am to the veil the closer I am to the voices that are jealous that say "Stupid!" "Worthless" "Slut!" "Kill Yourself". I'm close to these spirits. I pray for their eternal behalf. They are a fallen lot. I never met a baddy that couldn't become good. So even when I'm tempted to scream "Fuck off!" I don't I take my time and get closer to my creator Jah Rastafari. En el nombre del mas alto Dios. Amen.

Monday, April 3, 2017

Welcome April

I sit with writers block before actually typing anywords. I want to write the perfect post. I know that is not possible. I saw on social media the other day "IMPERFECT" spells out "IM PERFECT". That is how this post will be.

I went to bed yesterday evening with a head ache. My intense, real dreams only made it worse when I woke up at 6:00am. I dreamed I violently threw chairs in a classroom after being bullied. When I went back to sleep after taking ibuprofen I dreamed I was in a hotel. In this hotel there was a naked chick walking around. It looked to be my ex-wife. In that dream I kissed a girl for the thrill of it. I was directed to the 11th floor to find a person, a man whom could further direct me. It was a strange dream. Very realistic. I can't why any of the things were happening.

I''ve found "the truth" in a Marvelous Work and a wonder. I still can't decide if I'm solarian, lunarian, or stellarian. I wonder if I have time still to decide. I better still have time. That probably won't mean much to the average reader. I'm disorganized. I have disorganized schizophrenia. It's not fun. My condition is hearing voices. They say "don't do that", "You're worthless", "You're stupid", "kill yourself". I hear them at night when I'm trying to go to sleep. I hear them during the day when I'm awake.

 I enjoy sleeping much more than I do living. When I'm sleeping I'm dreaming. I'm not limited by anything in my dreams. I get afraid in my dreams. I'm not without fear in life. It's being able to go on in spite of the fear that determines my place in the race.

Something I learned from the radio is that I won the race of life before I even started racing. I still have to keep up the pace. This stage in life is a lot of contemplation and meditation. It's a lot of reading. I learn line upon line precept upon precept. I'm grateful for the warmth of a house. I very well could be homeless. I'm going to do something else. be excellent to each other. :)