Monday, February 27, 2017

Sidelined

What it means to me to be sidelined

Today monday the 27 of February 2017 I realize I am sidelined due to schizophrenia. I'm not in the trenches digging like the rest of 'em. Part of me is sad cause I'm not out there saying "Good morning. Hello. please and thank you." the other part of me is pleasantly surprised at the opportunity in front of me. The opportunity is to become something greater. Mentally I can practice so hard for the days I'm actually required to show up i.e. getting a shot, meeting with my doctor, etc. It's a long road. I'm travelling alone.

I lost my train of thought.

I am a person with schizophrenia. I used to need weed to write. Now I'm content without it. Sure things could get a whole lot more interesting if I was using however who is watching and reading? InI? InI have natural high. I get high to get low. that means I smoke to get low. I don't need that right now. I'm soaring through the clouds. blast off.

I'm not exactly happy with my position on the sidelines however I'm safe and that's the number one "aspect" of my life I could worry about. I'm not battling on buses. I'm not having to argue with anyone except for myself.

I love this phrase "fi chuu". It means something like "for reals".

I'm going to take a small nap be back with more sideline updates.
I'm back. I'm desperately trying to get stoned or drunk. Sobriety not only is boring it's hell. So getting high or drunk is heaven? Yes. It's a different reality that exist parallel to this square reality.

Some days I'm just holding on.
I stole that from radio disney.
I'm not gonna steal these lyrics. I could easily steal. Ideas are original in this parallel universe.
I had a dream this last sleep. I was having debate with the mormons. They sing O say what is truth? InI can't say truth is within one particular religion. It is within all the religions. InI worship yet InI no like this word worship. It seems antiquated and improper. InI adore jah rastafari because he is the king. InI claim no throne. Why would I say that? Maybe it's cause I'm a person trying to find meaning in my life.
break
InI back even though it doesn't seem like I was gone at all. I'm all about a good life. Good energy. I can change my mind in an instant.
I treat myself with natural scents and natural essential oils. I do it naturally. How much time before I'm off? I'm working and it's the last 5 minutes and I still have to work. Some of my greatest work has been done in this timeframe. It's when the clock is on and ticking. InI am naturally drunk. This is the life of this schizophrentic person. I am thinking. Here we go. Here we go again. This is wisdom and self-improvement. This is hopes and parallel realities converging onto one point. Now. Time is still racing. Beliefs I believe openly that Haile Sellasie is the world's greatest human since Christ. I adore this man because of the fruit of his life. It doesn't matter that they say he dead. When InI know his spirit lives on foriver. And it could be his body be trodding the earth. 10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1.
Still time to work. hmmm what else could I include. JAH! trabajo en mis suenos pensando en espanol.

Wednesday, February 22, 2017

Sometimes

I heard this song on the radio (garda fm) that went like this

hey baby it drives me crazy thinking of you. love away I got everything you need and so much more living in this world without you you're mine to keep got everything you need and so much more don't throw my love away I'm thinking of more and more each day yeah yeah yeah yeah hey baby you know i'm thinking of you and it drives me crazy night after night I pray and I want you back let's get it on got everything you need and so much more

I immediately thought of my ex. Ugh why?! It's like this curse that follows me. Truth is my ex is gone. She dead. In my schizophrentic universe she ain't coming back. Sob story. I cry tears of goodbye for you but in reality she gone. What's the point of having a girl? Like the homeless man said to me too much work. I agree.

I've seen too much crazy shit to want a babe. No no no it ain't me babe. It ain't me your looking for babe. I'm a drunk. I'm a stoner. I'm what I am a schizophrentic blogger. Fuck that word. Schizophrenia. I've become bitter. I'm trying giving it my all each and every day but at the end of the day am I? I look forward to sleep far too much. Living my dream reality not coming to terms with this reality. No wonder I drown myself in alcohol and THC. and hell yeah this day has been great. I've drunken wine to the point of my body feeling weird. Fuck that word. Weird. I before e except after C and in the word weird. Fuck. Fuck the weaklings who can't take me as my true form. I'm depressed manic schizophrentic. I just might turn on you. If I knew you in a past life i.e. Mexico or Provo I still love you. Love is what keeps me up and sustains my life. Love is all you need. What is love? That is the true question. Don't hurt me baby. Don't hurt me. Sure I miss your laughter. I miss togetherness but this new chapter is for the better. Hello. I don't have anything to say to you. Anything I would have liked to have said I've said it all before. This is a lone and dreary life. It's hell. It's heaven. It's whatever our minds can put together. We is InI. We is us humanity. We is the husband and wife who lost their child due to illness. Why do the Gods permit such atrocities? InI say the controller God is dead. Perhaps it's the induced catatonic state this wine has brought in me. I'm suffering. Why do they permit such terrible things to happen. I still believe in the yellow bird. She might be out their floating living her life waiting for me. But frankly I'm not in a place to respond. I'm fucked up and that's the place I want to be in. Call me crazy please. That's what society labeled me for walking down a highway counter direction. I'm but a simple man not ready to take it up the ass because I think that is truly sick. Man is strong if he takes such an act? Good for that man. I am sending on a consistent basis hoping someone will recieve. I stare off into the distance at a lunch tote and think what a wonderful day it is. It's a brand new day. Just like in mexico. I can conquer here as I did there?

WHY? Why is this shit so fucked up?

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Facebook Music Review

thoughts to one day share with facebook
waiting for the music to come on
we are programming.
raising kids.
How does logic work?
I'm listening to myself.
I once talked bad of this song.
I couldn't speak for the band. Though that's what I'm doing.
the world's not supposed to work like this.
I'm blogging this thought instead of sharing it to facebook.
One path is fi life and one path is fi death.
InI choose advaita yet still have opinions about what I should be doing or who I should be seeing.
This is weird. I can't be seeing this right now?
Real deal or faux beau.
You got to ask yourself if she/he is the real deal or FB. I hate FB. Like OMG me two.
I see catholic shit everywhere. Is it a sign?
What would it be a sign of?
When I finally came home seems like there was no one around?
The storm carried me right out that door.
skin turns to blood and hair goes clear.
I sound younger than I really am.
Seas and skies. The suns rays can melt you. that's for sure.
I am lost in a realm of insanity. It begins to shift. like an auto.
All the signs are telling me I'm a woman.
I'm behind the curve slightly.
I sit in the chair?
I'm simulating a high except I'm not that high.
You can't get too high man!
Life is hell.
Let me check my stats.
Same as before.
I'm listening to myself and I find that InI am the same person as I was when playing music alone in my room. Just making shit up.
Mangfald has some dopeaz songs and more people should check them out. They are meaningful songs. You won't find yourself singing along to many of their songs however you'll find yourself THINKING GOD DAMN THIS SONG IS GREAT. bob your head. not your your . i digress. We could be having a philosophical conversation to this pschedelic music. It's stoner rock. we just get high with lsd weed coke meth and listen to ourselves play music it goes on forever.
when a child's born nothing holding him back but immuturity.
Right and wrong. Live like us. They is telling us what to do and where to go and where to stand. I sit where I sit. and I stand where I stand.
Ok mangfald is over.
InI am going to listen to RHCP
I'm so hungry.
Their full album.
Ok I have to be ready to do this.
I'm committing.
I'm committing to what?
Getting cock rammed up my ass?
Giving a massive blowjob to my boss?
Fucking steve with my ....
sorry kids I'll stop with the pornography now.
Tact is a word we should encounter more.
Courage the cowardly dog show.
They took it off netflix. I'm committing myself to one chick for now. WE'll see if I actually make it.
It's 300 o'clock on Tuesday the 21st and we are going to listen to RHCP love sex magic. here we go.
excuse I it's sugar sex magic.
What I would give to have sex with my friend.
Here we go! in 3
2
1
go
that's a fake high. still feels pretty good.
Let me tell you what I'm feeling right now.
wake up mf and smell the slime
the power of equality.
visit nativeunborn.blogspot.com oh no wait this is nativeunborn visit my website jmohave.github.io
I'm still depressed. Which kinda sux slightly living in the past. I couldn't get past this level.
I don't know the parameters of this level.
Let me google it. See what comes up.
The workload of TCP connections represents the demands of applications for sending and receiving data in a reliable, ordered, and congestion-responsive manner. How well TCP can satisfy these demands depends on the conditions of the network path between the two endpoints of each TCP connection, and the way TCP reacts to these conditions. An obvious example of a network condition that affects TCP is congestion that leads to segment loss. When a data segment is lost, TCP must retransmit it, and this implies some reduction in performance (e.g., throughput) as the same data segment (rather than a new one) has to be sent again. In addition, TCP considers loss as an indication of network congestion, and reacts by reducing its sending rate. Different versions of TCP implement different ways of adjusting this sending rate. This means that the characteristics of the set of segments in a TCP connection are not just a function of the source-level behavior of the endpoints. This fact will have profound implications for the validation of our approach to synthetic traffic generation.

Intuitively, demonstrating that synthetic traffic is ``realistic'' must be based on a comparison of the statistical properties of real and synthetic traffic. If these properties are reasonably approximated, we can argue with confidence that the traffic generation method and its underlying statistical model provide an adequate foundation for experimental networking research. The comparison can be performed at two levels. First, we can compare source-level properties using the a-b-t modeling approach (see for example section 3.5). Second, we can compare network-level properties, i.e., properties of the actual segments that make up individual connections in real and generated traffic. The material in this chapter is concerned with developing methods for making this latter comparison meaningful.

Since network conditions have an important impact on TCP connections, comparing real and synthetic traffic at the network-level is difficult if network conditions are not incorporated to some extent into the traffic generation system. For example, if we generate traffic that is intended to resemble that of some real link, and connections on this link experience substantial loss rates, the characteristics of the synthetic traffic would be rather different if the synthetic traffic did not experience comparable loss rates. Otherwise, the synthetic traffic would experience higher transfer rates, shorter durations, etc. The first part of this chapter considers methods for characterizing three important, and perhaps the dominant, network-level properties of TCP connections: round-trip times, receiver window sizes, and loss rates. These three properties will be incorporated in our traffic generation method as input parameters, and will make synthetic traffic more comparable to real traffic. Additionally, we also examine the properties of a number of real traces to illustrate the wide range of network conditions in which TCP operates, and how this range changes from one network link to another.

The second part of the chapter considers the actual problem of comparing traffic at the network-level. The research literature has identified a number of statistical properties of traffic that can serve as metrics for assessing the realism of synthetic traffic. We describe these properties and consider their application in the context of comparing traffic traces. We also examine a number of real traces in light of these metrics. Our analysis reveals important differences between the traces, and uncovers some dependencies between network-level metrics and types of source-level behavior.
(source http://www.cs.unc.edu/~fhernand/diss-html/node24.html on 3:13PM 2/21/2017)
There's a certain amount of preparation for this album. Just like this blog.
There not equal however they are like 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10.
We are many.
3.14159265.
Curve.
sending.
recieving.
it's hard for the male to recieve. If he does he's gay.
Sending? Anyone can send.
i just sent. I'm not committed to recieve. I'm cold I'm tired I'm hungry I'm wet. I'm thinking of the moans of my wife giving birth to our first child.
I'm in here somewhere. We really outhere. preach muzac. InI preach everywhere I go.
I 'm getting tired of RHCP.
The album goes on. I'll review the whole thing.
He's talking about favorite things.
It's kind of mindless pop rock.
I hate to say it. Sugar sex magic it means less than what I commented on youtube.
Crank it. It's like a machine. I didn't know give it away now was on this album. I love this song.
I'm thinking in my head. having been on the light side going to the dark side.
bloodclat. lol. scary. music. movie. movick. InI here with my friend the ghost.
I live with and in this strange world. Slightly insane. sanity begins to shift.
cold. listening to the lyrics. hump de bump is the song I really want to hear.
Good song.
interesting flow.
the album continues.
This album goes on forever. I'd rather be listening to some post metal.
It's like this is also the thinking man's rock and roll.
kissing her virginity.
here's the key track of the album. blood sugar crazy she has it.
drugs make InI salivate.
I believe I'd live from now on sipping on whisky.
sipping whisky. mentally.
I'm scared of all the sugar sex magic. wow I'm alive. For the first time I'm categorizing myself on this side.
I'm going to pause this album cause I need some food. When do we feed ourselves? It could be at anytime.
InI she.
InI can wait.
42:42. I'll finish reviewing this album in another sitting. I can't take it all at once. It's too much cock to receive and review. I'll probably wander around find some piece of bread and wander back. I might stand as a S for sometime.
break
ok. ok. under a bridge! great song. The city I live in the city of angels. Lonely as I am together we crime? haha i'm not quite sure
just one of those great songs to kick back and relax. take me to the place I love. Fuck yes. I'm thinking about the commercial youtube just put on when I fired up the machine. advertisements influence us. I used to think fuck advertisements. however lately I've become quite privy to them.
the next song is pretty good. again it's not post-metal however it's not pop rock either. It's rock and roll at a 8 or nine. Dr doolittle what's your secret? Give it to me. We all want honest information from our doctors. We don't want it sugar-coated. Give me the medicine full strength.
Oh snap I like this next song. Talking about new orleans and crucifixes? sounds like a land of la la land. This song is pornographic. turn it up! lol
i forget many times that this is for facebook. facebook. I'm not a huge fan. I don't need it. however i use it. It's convenient staying in touch with friends.
anyway this album continues and i'm still giving it a thumbs up. I'm not going to call these songs filler because I'm sure they grow on you. They have cool riffs and cool lyrics. Cool licks. It's a cool album all-around.
a long long long long time ago. self pyscho. same here. Not right now however. lol devil in my dick and demons in my semen. rock and roll in the most sublime truth there is. one could argue that it's mwaw. however who needs a spokesperson? InI get by soley on this rock. I rock. My teenage self reminded me of that not too long ago.
I'm being blessed with game? I certainly hope so. I get typing and getting so smart and then I need to snap out of it.
pussy i kill. this is some next level shit. I gotta say it's not my self to swear and include all this pornography but I gotta branch out. I can't be ashamed of pleasure and activities that are natural that were introduced by the father in the garden before the beginning of time.
This could be called porn-rock for the images it conveys to the mind. so good! awesome. japanese!
we all commit the dirty deed. we someone we love or with a stranger. It's the act of love. sex. i grew up in a sex taboo culture. I think to a certain extent it's still there. At the same time I don't need other people's sex lives invading my little bubble either.
And with that last fade out I think the album is coming to an end. Just like that it's over. It started out great. It ended great. SURPRISE! they're red hot. it's a bonus fun track. I love it. I'm a yes man today. Yes red hot chile peppers. bravo. if I wasn't a paraplegic I'd stand up and give you and ovation however my legs don't work like that. Good job. Yes YES yES!

Seething Ball of Rage

time 2:10 on February 20th 2017. This might be my last entry. My thought pattern gets lost in an abyss of machination and plotting. I know I don't have the means to carry out such devious, diabolical acts so I conform with writing this blog. Why are my parents seemingly against me? Their love for me is weak and their support for me is laughable. I expect nothing from them. Good for them for being narcissistic and holding their ground. I don't want them and they don't want me. Good. I'm in all cases a speck in the cosmos. My suicide will be a meaningless blip in the universe. I don't feel bad that they will have to clean up the mess and deal with the body. If they wanted a different outcome they should have treated me more kindly and more fairly. Perhaps try to have a heart to heart with a schizophrenic mind.

I'm a kind soul however my rage and contempt grows. It seems I have turned to the dark side (laugh track). Master Revin forgive I for these abominable acts. I have a clear conscious. I expect to find the master of the Universe and with understanding grant my soul be released from this endless cycle of incarnations. InI grateful to Jah. Not the white God Jesus. InI Jah be a spirit ever pervasive and ever supreme. Black as the night.

How can I praise Jah as a demon? This question has troubled me for some time. InI an angel protector on the dark side praising the light side I came from. It ultimately comes down to non-duality. I see beyond right and wrong.

What is this thing called love? The only love I knew was from a woman whom I shall not name. I only now recognize this thing so pure and sublime. I let it slip away into the abyss of my schizophrenic mind. It's only too true that phrase you never know what you have till it's gone. Love. My parents I believe gave me "love" out of duty and expectation. Sure they might have said "I love you" to me (most of the time I don't recall they did) even still their feeling of love is weak. Hate and anger permeate my life much stronger than love. The act of love, sex, is nonexistent in my world growing up and now. What a shame. They say it's a good thing.

Will my life be counted as a failure because I gave into the dark forces and dark energies? I seriously doubt it. My suicide will be the capstone to a beautiful life full of forced social interaction with moderate acquaintances. The closest friend I had was either a childhood friend June or adulthood friend who shall not be named.
When you think about it the darkness is what this universe is made of. All talk of love as this divine power is laughable. I speak of one love. One love for self. InI love myself and because I do I will end my suffering via asfixiation.

Ultimately I know that I am not well. I have an unstable mind. I have the mind of a criminal who has not the means nor connections of carrying out crimes against humanity. So InI will commit the one "crime" that is not a crime. I will end my existence. Thank God. This life sucks. Overrated. I've played several times if not tens of times and every time is the same. We ask the same questions about our existence and mortality. InI am free and unfree simultaneously. My death will be release of all this rage.

break

continuo
ahora he cambiado la mente. voy a consiguir nueva chica que se llama nictehai. No importa I'm wanting to get drunk having smoked the herb. I am a devil child. I've said alot in this universe. It's almost like I'm possesed.
No doubt is a good band. I like no doubt. I love Gweneth Paltrow! What's here name again? Gwen stafani. ahh. I've had the best day. Not really. but yes. It's just 147 on a Tuesday. I've lived all these days for milenia. It's a place where InI exist alone. with my girl. the empress. We are standout.
devil let nobody get the best of you.
InI am schizophrentic.boo!
scary picture show.
resemblance a un alien.
La madre es una puta light and kindess.
Full integration
no give away the name. I do not tell.
I needed to write this book in order for my life to be complete.
What makes a complete life?
I've thought about the question I've been having in my mind forever or close to it. It's like the internet wass used for the show/signal got messed up. I have the smartness of a one grader old little person.
La musica esta bien chida. No se lo que estaba diciendo. Hablaba como un ghost. Except there was something about mind block. InI am duppy. and body. Spirit and blood. If I'm an advanced human being there would no be blood. Just body. This is the reason for turning to the light side. It would enable I-person to live for something.
Ok here's something Bob Marley said that makes it bien clarito. (really clear)
There are two roads one is life and one is death. And if you live in death you must be dead. And if you live in life you must be live. The way the mouth say make you live.
This quote makes it easy to tell that there are two worlds and we must actively try to seperate those two worlds. Eventually however if find the two roads are the same. This is advaita. Read it on my website jmohave.github.io

Monday, February 13, 2017

sadness happiness singing on my behalf

InI grateful for the angels that sing round InI. On this day I have heaven in the terrestrial realm. I know not what the angels sing on that it brings happiness and sadness to my soul. Peace to all.
With Christ we can all be Christians and immortal? InI no seek to live foriver. InI seek a rich life dedicated to jah work which is never finished.

It's now 11:10 on this fine monday morning. It's easy to get down in this world. InI stay naturally high. I get those endorphins firing by going on walks and runs. It's now 11:11 on a monday 2/6/2017. Who are the time controllers? I submit that they are InI. Say the lines to the play we are all involved in. Fa-sa-ra-rock. I am. I forget. Time controllers. AGC records. I smile. It hurts. We all feel that hurt. None of us are immune to the great disease. They are mining us. It's hunt or be hunted. Seems like a bleak existence. Trust me. It is. Tuning in to the frequency helps me. It's either eat or be eaten. and I wanna eat.
america do you recall justice for all?
InI boogie. InI skank.

It's been several days since Monday the sixth. I am in a melancholy mood listening to melancholy music. My heart goes out to victims of terrorism and rape. There is so much trouble in the world. Universities are graduating thieves and murderers. To think these are the type of people that rule the world. Still I believe in the hope of the people. My dreams have been vivid. Especially last night. I was hanging out with Wiz Khalifa when a chinese man threatened us. I faught the chinaman. I didn't lose yet I didn't win either it was more of a draw. From then on Wiz had my back. He introduced me to a honey and we later cuddled she and I. There was more to the dream but I won't go into it. This week has been tough. I'm planning and scheming pretty much everyday. I can't say with certainty what exactly the future holds I know it is well though.
I'm never without fear. I fear my parents. I fear this life which is hell. I fear missing my bus and creating a time blip. Yet at the same time I meditate and these fears are dispelled. Love is the only thing that is real.


InI duppy living in this depressed world. This is dark paradise. where a certain amount of things are possible..It's like my brother is still alive. I know i treated my brother bad. I don't know why I don't want to repent. I don't want to do the father's work. this is a magic carpet ride. Going to hell. it's the story. It was the meaning for me and the mountains echoed. I'm an ambassador for cannabis culture except I haven't lit up. I'm planning to get high. I already celebrated in a past life.
4 dlc packs for one price
I make decisions. I am playing in the game. Sometimes our realities are created by the music that we play. I'm playing as a woman wanting no use with babys. InI had my playlist. This was evil. Read it in my book and the mountains echoed 2.
I'm going crazy. I'm going blues rock. That's what I orignally wanted to listen. Well if you wouldn't mind could you put some reggae on? Naw woman i'm not gonna put reggae on. that shit gay!
(laugh track)
When will stranger things season 8 come into existence. That should keep it running that long with the same characters. and the show would get more complex and less complex and evolve and turn into many types of different shows. #Netflixsuggestions.
I'm woman in the morning time. I divulging everything.
I couldn't beat the judge. What was I thinking?
I wasn't. Or was I. read it in my book and the name was good 1.
I'm in a completely different world. I'm dancing. In my dreams. I'm not standing up.
what does evil do? What? does it scare people? It's like the words come to me.
I was being nasty with my fellow beings. It was giving me something to do as if I was taking a ride.

THESE ARE MY BELIEFS
first of all these are private so respect
InI a god soldier. I read it in a book.

Which book is that?
that is the question we're all talking about.

Which book is that?
I'm 100% certain.
I'm a cowboy shooting people down.
I don't need it to work.
i go to think of a persson. and i choose the father.
business. sell items.
just read my books. Would you please?
Would you watch my video?
A message to the world.
(I am drinking llodka and it is making me drunk. )
I am a duppy. That means I'm a ghost. I'm a nobody. It's just me in here.
Except i know theres the little people.
I'm trying to sell this one. and this other one. yet and I don't know.
Oh baby that some really good dick sucking.
I'm as dumb as the singing monsters. I'm divulging yet I say nothing.
I just do like the first lady.
i don't know.
I'm a little kid.
I have a lawyer.
and he'll soo your ass.
This is the conversation with the judge. InI complex organizam.
ini shithera-zAID, It's a bad word. yet InI am saying it.
How stupid. Word and script.
followers which are also my fellow watchers in the game listen to the music and let it hypnotize your soul. hahaha.
I'm worried bout the abduction.
this is spoken at the same time as the music.
:)
i am time controller nice to meet you. next up on the radio would be chronotrigger.
what is music?
I don't know how to describe it.
Pure magic.
what is magic?'
magic is hard to explain. It's like a science except not
it's like a belief except bi.
what retake.

Why would I say that?
I don't know.
The greatest play ever.
program
hack
samething.
blogger.com
nativeunborn.blogspot.com
well done.
damn who else is in here?

i see the chronic of the persons and the people that I once formally knew.
I"m not too concerned with selling this shit.
Shitherazade.
it's more famous than I think. The radio isn't getting this.
I am a robo.
pow!
I hit iself with xp.
no way! that was like 40 xp!
next up on the radio would be this joint by slightly stoopid.

Friday, February 3, 2017

Hashem Yahweh Elohim

This is the name by which I know the universal father. InI father different than i-man father. InI see John and Rich in this dream. I get up and stand up for my rights.

gets situated.

Right. I want to be docile getting my shot.
I know the voice I'm going to use with social security.

I'm scared for my life. I'm scared of this God.
I used to worship Lucifer.
Now I've flipped the track to worship Jah elohim allah creator. The name is the same. Rastafari is InI. Have you ever heard of the natural mystics? That is InI.

what has been taught to me:
its a war over good and evil
is that true?
yes and no.
In one sense that is happening.
In another it is not happening.
Ever since reading the Urantia book I've felt more at peace with the great lie.
The Indian didn't need the great lie. Indians or Jesus? I choose Indians every time. I however respect the Christian Jesus for his humility and wisdom displayed in the the New Testament. Still why revere this book as scared scripture let alone a credible historical source? InI believe in the "renacimiento" or the "renaissance". Each individual need be rebirthed. Unless a man be born again he cannot enter into the kingdom of god. A reporter once asked Bob Marley if he could be a rasta. Bob replied you have to be born again to be a rasta. The reporter then axed the question do I need to be black? Bob retorted "Do you have a choice? If you have a choice you better be black." Here is wisdom. We all have been playing this game for milenia. Which side do we choose? Do we choose the side of the black race? Or do we choose the side of the white race? This is why prisons are so divided. Race all of a sudden becomes an issue. If in prison I would go be with the hispanics. However my heart resides with the blacks. Here again is wisdom. Until the color of a man's skin is no more important than the color of his eyes there will be war.
According to the native american, war is an essential part of existence. It's hard to know where InI stand in this war. I'm small. very small. My heart is like a cloudy rock. Impenetrable yet nebulous. I'm good said the mowglis. Life is like recollecting you're favorite bands. Om, ... it takes myself a long time to remember. When we're speaking I have a terrible memory. Lucifer's lights. other metal. InI represent the movement of rastafari and reggae music. It's a movement of kindness and love. Do InI always "bring it"? Do InI always "represent"? Probably not yet my heart is there 100%. Some days I fail to complete my purpose. It's hard to shine all day all night. this is probably why I need to get medicated. My tale is one of having two masters. I've said it to myself that I have two souls. One soul is gay and worships Lucifer and loves to smoke weed. The other self is straight and is very defensive. That's why InI say InI cause InI am two. Shh. Keep this on the down low.
What do we do to survive? We evolve. What does the evolved version of jmo jusutin mavick look like? InI ghangster. I retain words of the past yet I move forward in this tamastic field. A great question is whether karma exists. According to the truth it doesn't. There is not good and evil we are advanced human beings having a negative experience. So choose wisely. peace.

Wednesday, February 1, 2017

Scott Joplin

Scott Joplin (c.1867 - 1917) was the best known composer of ragtime music, a unique and unusual American musical style that flourished around the turn of the twentieth century and is considered to have been a significant influence on the development of jazz music.


serenity prayer

dear god please help me see the truth and not change the things I can't and to change the things that I can.